Tomorrow is the first day in our new office location. I get very mixed feelings about changes that are not of my own volition. Even when good, as this change is, I question why I'm not initiating more. Why the last 10 years have swept me up in their current. It's like I've forgotten how to sail, or swim, or however I used to navigate for myself. But it's such a lovely time of year, it's easy to put the nagging angstiness to the side and enjoy these days.
Yesterday, I went to Darlene Cole's exhibition at Bau-Xi. Her paintings are wonderful and full of unfettered whimsy. There's a deep and resonating affinity underpinning the prettiness though. Even as I spoke to her, I both understood what she was saying but couldn't quite fathom her way of looking and yet I felt very connected to it.
Afterwards, I took a spin around the AGO, stopping in on some favourites. It's such a peaceful, manageable space after the hectic exhilaration of the MET last weekend. I found myself promising to stop in there more often. And then I resumed my normal circuit, tripping my way to the flower markets where I talked roses with Jasmine, trying to convince her to order bigger more bountiful varieties.
Even though there's no snow on the ground, it's truly cold now. And I'll probably stay cozy close to home today, writing those Christmas cards that should probably have been sent by now and cooking oatmeal, reading Leanne Shapton's Sunday Night Movies, which I picked up yesterday.
And I'll try to think about what it is I want, because I think that's what's missing in all this changes. As if when life is just fine and lovely, it's easy to keep going, to even feel guilty writing that the peaceful routine bores me. That there's also nagging that there ought to be more deep bellyful joy and more purpose.
Happy Sunday, you guys!
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