I didn't think a lot about this trip in the lead-up to it. People asked, are looking forward to it? and I'd look blankly back at them, a blurred haze over my eyes. And even when there was only one week, one day left to go, it felt very far away. I told them, I'll feel it when I step on the plane. But even then, I didn't.
I've been waiting for the relaxation to take hold. And Dublin's been amazing; sunny, warm, beautiful. I'm sunburnt. I've been swimming. I read half of Colum McCann's new book on the beach one day. But something's keeping me tethered to that same unease I've been feeling now for months.
I've been mostly walking and sitting still, wading into saltwater. I'll keep these simple things on repeat and hope they take hold.
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